pink~

dreamy~

I found a lovely blog called dreamy whites~ ohh she has some definite dreamy things!

I'm creating....getting inspired feels so good! I don't know about you but for me it all starts by day dreaming. I am a dreamer I'll admit it. I even talk to myself getting lost in all the possibilities of a simple vintage button. I think most creative people have to be like that. It has to start out as a dream.
Right now I'm inspired by French linens & dreamy faded whites that are time worn.
Have lots of appointments tomorrow...cat scan and set up for radiation... I might be getting a few tattoo's lol....oh gee! They have to mark me... I'm doing well.....took a long bike ride with Mark and Jonathan~so fun!

bless & hugs!
pamy j

simple beauty~

I love simple days~ lots of shinning light, anything in white, a bowl full of yummy pink roses and of course throw in the old linens and I'm set!

I had the most amazing day today with my friend Kristen. She is sooo talented her house makes me weak to my knee's it's SO beautiful! She was very kind to cut my hair and give me some lovely highlights...(i had been waiting wondering if I would have any hair... heavy sigh).
What a long hard week ...MRI, more agressive biopsies ugh, ugh, ugh a bit of a scare when they found something else ... but all ok except my wounds boo hoo!
I am thanking the Lord BIG time! Have you ever been face down in an MRI squished into a tube that was super loud told NOT to move with your arms down on your side? Plus I had a cold on top of it all and couldn't even breath. I was so thankful Psalm 23 was in my heart...it's funny how the WORD of GOD gives you such peace at the very moment! When I started to cry the nurse said," now listen you can't cry"! lol.....ok! lol!
So some of my treatment is delayed until I heal once again.....it's my journey...only a test.
I have been working non stop through all of this, I have to say I was a bit tired this week.

It's so wonderful when you can be built up!
My LOVELY friend made me look beautiful! She inspired me to get my creative juices flowing again! Thus the story begins.....I will be designing some lovely things ....her amazing love and talent warmed my heart....her yummy cup of tea (PG Tips...agave...creamer..) .... i needed the SPA treatment today so much! I love how friends build each other up inspire one another and just listen, yes listen.

bless and hugs!
pamy j

Christmas brunch~

Today I was blessed to be able to go to a Christmas brunch given by our church. It was nice to get dressed up and visit with other women & of course listen to a lovely message. I had brought some of my tea cups and plates to share with my table....which had burlap, silver, little white mums and candles along with dreamy German glass glitter birdies (from Wendy Addison) .

I start back to work on Monday....so thankful!

The picture of the lady in the car makes me laugh.....It's so me always digging for something n the trunk of my car thinking wear did I put that? ! Little pink shoes are from Rachel Ashwels blog~

bless & hugs~

pamy j

Feminine~

just found this on chez fifi's blog....love her blog~

as for me ....doing better~ they got everything... I have clean margins ...I start treatment soon~ will update you on what is next~ so thankful~

This is a lovely mannequin given to me (2 of them actually I call them "the girls").... I had wanted one for so long! The faith necklace on it was bought for me at Ruby Rose in SLO. So precious!

Another gift this lovely bracelet my friend Tami bought for me. It's made out of vintage earrings....so adorable I wear it all the time! Might have to make some!

bless & hugs!
pamy j

beauty beyond what we see~

Surgery was last Friday~ all went well. I was amazed at the peace of God that came over me before I was brought into the surgical unit. Then I felt as if I was in the most amazing deep sleep....much to my surprise to hear my name called as I opened my eyes I asked," was it in my lympthnodes"? They responded with no.
I cannot tell you the tears that rolled down my face looking to share with anyone in that room of God's amazing grace! And I did just that!
I have been recuperating at home with much love of old and new friends. We have been blessed with meals, phone calls and texts from all over the world....so thankful that you are my friends ! So thankful to know you have been praying for me....I can feel those prayers....i have so needed them!

Well, my road is one day at a time as I wait yet again. I must admit I don't like being in this "wait and see" mode.


I go to see the surgeon this Wed (day before Thanksgiving) to find out all of my pathology reports....stage this cancer ...know the treatment I have ahead of me (chemo/radiation). I have come off a mountain and feel a bit melancholy....and a wee bit tired....

My bandages are allowed to come off today...I can hardly look ....all of this is such a strange place to be at the moment.... i'm reminded of the inner beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit....
so...trust I do.....God has me in the palm of His hand and He promises to never let go....there I find my rest....in Him I get my strength for the next step....

here are some cute pics of a birdie from my friend Shannon a gift perched in a lovely plant accompanied by a sweet meal....

look closethis little birdie has sweet little paper words on his bottom that are shredded and aged....love it, love it!

bless & hugs
pamy j

In my weakness...He is strong~

How do you start a post that has many tears attached to it? How do you describe something so personal so private? How do you comfort when you are hurting and yet you don't want others to hurt too?
I feel as though I'm in a theme park on a roller coaster just going up the tracks to the top. I know there is no stopping ... I'm anticipating the top because I know it will zoom out of control in a hang on for your life ride.
That's where I'm at.....
In the past 2 weeks my life has completely changed.

I have been diagnosed with breast cancer. It seems like such a blur....
I could go into details of some of the pain and mistakes made by the medical field.....a radiologist here in the states missing my calcification's....2 biopsies that showed fibrocystic changes ( NEW Zealand)....then you ask yourself did they get the microcalcifications in the biopsy....did they miss it? How can someone who was ALWAYS under the scope have this happen?
Mark and I moved back 11 months ago from New Zealand to California.....we were just settling in getting our lives back to normal. His insurance had just kicked in with his work.... About 2 months ago He came out of his office and said to me ...."the Lord told me you have to go get a mammogram right away". He has never done that in our entire marriage of 26 years. Well...I was so mad at him....thinking to myself I am ALWAYS on top of mammogram ALWAYS! So I made my appointment because it had only been one year since my last one .... it kind of frightened me.
They told me they saw something.....all I could think was oh brother...it's in the 1:00 position and it's just the same old nothing....but they wanted to biopsy it & that they did. So when they phoned me (at work) and told me my husband was on his way I knew..I knew......her words invasive ring over and over in my head.....Mark arrived at my work and we went outside and just held each other sobbing, as my sweet husband cried out to the Lord," why her and not me....I would take this from her Lord".
So here I am.....before the Lord... i'm weak...He is strong...I am sad ...He is my Joy....I have cancer... but He is life....oh my soul why are thou so cast down? I can't get up....but He picks me up like a little sheep and turns me back over on my feet....
I have felt His breath pass over me....the breath of life...the breath he breathed on Adam...I am but dust.....but He has given me life....
I don't want my blog (that I have neglected) to become sad....but I want to keep you in the know...so many emails and texts from you~I have felt your prayers....they sustain me....I have read your scriptures...listen to your council....you are friends~when one part of the body hurts the whole body hurts....thank you~
I have some of the best Dr's here...our family physician is a Christan man who we have known for years....he has been the most caring ..praying with us...clearing time for me with all my questions such a support....my surgeon is one of the most well known in this area the very best....

I go in for surgery this Friday at 4:00pm (Ca. time) I am asking for prayer that it is not in my lympth nodes...they get it all... God's hand on me....

The Psalms have been especially comforting to me...when I'm afraid His peace washes over me....He keeps me in that perfect peace...because my mind is stayed upon Him~

I guess the best thing is pink still makes me smile.....

thank you for your love~

bless & hugs~
pamy j

Ruby Rose~

OK MY NEW FAVORITE SHOPPE!!! This vintage shoppe is adorable! I met the owner Stephanie through my friend Kathy which I met through my really good friend Brenda! Ha! Have you ever walked into a little place and thought ...I could stay here all day! She has amazing vintage finds.....linens....vintage clothes....old tarnished silver....old bottles....just endless! These gals are true kindred spirits! Kathy my newest friend who lives around the corner from me...her sister owns Baby Cakes....you have got to buy that book! Google all about her she is amazing! It's all vegan and gluten free cakes, she was on Oprah...and Disneyland want her to sell her cakes in there too!

.....Kathy's house makes me cry it's beyond beautiful.....better than a stack of the most dreamy vintage French magazines! This girl is SO talented!

You have got to go to Ruby Rose and meet Stephanie....she is adorable.....she is only open on Thurs and Sat In San Luis Obispo.....don't worry about getting a coffee...there is the cutest shabby vintage trailer in front of store that sells delicious coffee!

Bless and hugs!

pamy j

rachel ashwell~remnants of the past show

Oh boy! I was sooooo thrilled and sooooo blessed to be able to go to the remnants of the past vintage show this past Saturday! I had heard about this show for sometime....but living overseas prevented me from attending. My sweet friend Judy puts this on twice a year. She has an amazing array of lovely lovely vender's from near and far! The french linens sent me! My heart was pounding I could feel its warmth as I looked around the one thing I noticed was these gals (thousands) precious gals all had that look about them. What look might you ask? Why, my look! Yes we are all connected in such a strange way. Our love of vintage jewelery...piled on....our funky purses....our layering of fabrics.....whites....creams...lace....and of course cowboy boots with dresses...heaven!

The highlight was meeting Rachel Ashwell.....she is just so beautiful~she was there signing her book. What a treat.. such beauty~ she is amazing! I have a picture of me with her...but I looked so bad ha ha!

bless & hugs!

pamy j

enjoyable weekend~

we had a lovely weekend celebrating Marks Birthday on the 26Th of Sept. Both kids were here...Kenzie drove from Northern CA with her boyfriend Scottie, so great!....I finally had 2 days off in a row...whew so all worked out perfectly! The weather was so incredible.... lovely lovely! We spent both days with mornings of french toast and pancakes....lazing around on the beach.... a bike ride on a dreamy path along the golf course to the ocean..... dinner at the most yummiest of places...and kayaking in a breathtaking bay with all the sea life.... Here are a few pics of the family! We are SO blessed!

While we were waiting for the kayaks we went into this little beach coffee shop on the pier....this sign caught my eye .....thought you would enjoy.

bless & hugs!

pamy j